If you're a long time reader here (thank you), you know that I don't go in for New Year's resolutions. They tend to get broken which in turn leaves me feeling disappointed in myself. Too much pressure for this gardener.
Instead, I choose a word to guide, motivate and ground me throughout the year. That's not really true ... the word chooses me somehow. Like an old, soft and comfortable sweater, the word settles on my heart and I instinctively know that it is the word.
It goes something like this: wandering down a multitude of mental bunny trails in a distracted sort of way and then believing that I've found the perfect word only to be hit with a mental mind slap by the word that has found me.
Some of the words I've claimed and tried to honor include: espy, stretch, freedom, forgiveness, discipline, balance and spontaneity. (My family definitely wouldn't say that I claimed (or honored) spontaneity - I tried - they love me anyway ♥).
The closing of this swiftly moving year finds me enjoying a satisfyingly cold and drizzly day by the fireplace. Jotting down ideas and words, I thought several times that I had the right word, several words in fact teased and tempted. Completion (for the numerous incomplete projects), grace (to honor those who share it with me and to offer it to those who need it), light (because we live in a dangerously dark world that begs for more), encourage (because it makes others feel cared for and nurtured and it makes me happy to see them grow)...
But none of these words settled comfortably. The word was just out of reach, out on the periphery of my mind's edge. And it wouldn't be summoned.
And then the word appeared ... and I knew it was right.
Let me share a few of it's synonyms with you: accidentally on purpose (my personal favorite), awake, deliberate, cognizant, insightful, observant, gratuitous, premeditated. It's a good list.
It's a good word. Solid and full of purpose. It's all encompassing and motivating. It's not a quiet, subtle or lazy word. It has bite. I like it.
It allows room for action on all the other words that were swimming around my mind. With intention I will offer grace, light and encouragement. And come hell or high water, with intention I will get some of these projects completed.
I like it.